Positive Thinking

this day was unbelievable.

it didn't occur to me that i have to end this day with something emotional, too (like how it started)


i'm still this sad, depressed person.
but at least now the thesis-ing is improving.

later this afternoon, while i was surfing the net for anything that would temporarily make me forget what i was doing (thesis-ing), i stumbled into several sad-emo-depressing blog entries of people.
naghahanap ng kasama/karamay, kumbaga. haaay.

one of the posts quoted:
"i’ve never been in this situation where i deeply care for someone very much yet i also don’t care for them at all."

what the heck. may ganyan ba talaga.
maybe he really cared for that someone all this time. maybe there was just something that made him think that he didn't really care at all. it could be pain. hatred. bitterness. i dunno. maybe something bad.
but the truth is, he still cared.
hindi lang siguro niya matanggap na ganun. na kahit anong gawin niya e he will always care for that person.

napaisip tuloy ako.

and the idea that came to me, hindi na umalis.


what if..
what if the very, only thing that makes us connected, the thing that i personally considered a burden for some time now, this thing that i have always wanted to get done and get over with,
what if..
what if this thing pala has some other purpose?

what if it was meant to actually save what we're slowly losing..


or maybe not. i don't know!
baka naman sobrang optimistic lang pala ako.
'wag naman sana.

"The higher you reach, the harder you fall."


but either way, i still have to make a choice. help me.

photo grabbed from here.