Play. Rewind. Skip. Eject.

time machines amaze me. back then, i always wondered what would it be like if i were at this or that specific point in time. it's not that i wanted to change something in the past - i know i did a lot of mistakes back then, but what can i do.. i made them. they're already part of my history that won't be erased no matter what.

but what amazes me more is the future.
if i could only see what will happen next..

until recently.

(no, i certainly did not use a time machine, of course!)


there was this lad whom i knew so well that sometimes i get to see how similar we were. i get to see myself in him.
yeah. we basically have the same taste. a bit.
i like what he likes. i do what he usually does.
and we think almost of the same things.
almost.


way back, i had a plan. no, a decision. a serious decision, and actions must be taken afterwards. but i was unsure. the risk that i might be taking is tremendous, i thought. so i temporarily decided not to do it.

if i could only see what will happen next..


and then..

it was fortunate enough for me to tell myself that he plans to do the same thing.
(we really are thinking the same way. haha)

and he did what i'm supposed to do.

unfortunately for him, things didn't work out the way they should be. and it was all over for him.


so now i'm having a hard time thinking about it all over again. should i do it, too?
will we have the same future. maybe yes, maybe not. nevertheless, i'm quite thankful that what happened at least showed me one of the possibilities.


until now, i haven't done it yet.

and then that was how i realized how unsimilar we are from each other, after all.

..rheyian™ XD